Profound static cling.

2009-12-10

Sometimes I forget...

This year has gone by sooo quickly! I don't even know where it's gone. :( There was a lot of amazing moments and plenty of depressing moments but for some reason I tend to dwell on the sad times more than the good. I know it's horrible but that's just the way I am. But once I snap out of it and realize that my life is wonderful because of the people in it and because of what they do to make it better all the bad things just don't matter. Sometimes I forget about how lucky I am to have my family and friends. They help me out whenever I need help, they're the people I see when I think back to all the amazing memories I have, and if they didn't exist my life wouldn't be so great. And that's the reason why I should NEVER forget about how fortunate I am to just have them alive and in my life.

Ahh... I still need to study. ONE MORE FINAL.

2009-11-10

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So this past week has been really stressful on both my family and me. This summer, my uncle Neil had a stroke, and he's had multiple strokes before but this time it was different. His roomate found him on the floor in the bathroom and immediately brought him to the hospital. The doctor's found that some bleeding in his brain. At that point he was in the ICU. He was awake, but unresponsive. Soon, he wasn't even able to wake up. He was just in the hospital, practically a vegetable but my family all hoped he would pull through. My grandma decided keep my uncle on Cat 1. We kept praying for a miracle. Although we hoped to have more time to wait for my uncle to pull through. His case had to be submitted the Ethics Committee of the Hospital. Because my uncle had no will or power of attorney for his last wishes, a new set of doctors were assigned to check on his condition to make the final decision of whether there is quality of life for his future or not. The committee decided that he could possibly pull through. He was moved to a different hospital home. He was able to open his eyes and he blinked his eyes in response to questions. His wife even said that she would like to remarry when he got better. But he passed away on November 1, 2009. He had 4 daughters, Kelsey and Julian from his first wife and Janel and Kylie with Tita Elma. I didn't know him very well, but from what I remember he was always the carefree, funny, and silly uncle. He was such a huge Laker fan, and that was one thing I always talked to him about. We visited him and his family in Las Vegas about twice a year and although it wasn't enough time to get to know someone. I know I loved him, he was family, and I love his children, my cousins. My heart hurts so much for them. Janel is only 11 and Kylie is only 3. I can't even imagine how they feel now. My uncle had 5 brothers, my daddy, Tito Jeff, Tito Audie, Tito Glen, and Tito Teddy. My daddy doesn't cry often, but when Tito Neil died, he did. It really hurt me when I saw my daddy cry. I don't like knowing that he's hurt. They all had different opinions on my uncles situation, but that just goes to show how much they care about him. One thing about my family is that when things get tough they still love each other to stick together during those times. My family wasn't and still isn't together on most things. Past arguments and grudges still linger on years later and it seems dumb, but I know that even when they aren't getting along they're always there for each other when the other hits rock bottom. Even though I wish that everyone got along I'm still thankful that they'll be there when the other is in need. I love that.

2009-10-28

So listen...

Today my friend asked me, "Would you ever consider being a housewife?" and I said, "HELL NO." Then they decided to add, "What if he was super rich, I'm talking billionaire rich?" Again, I replied, "NO". And then they asked, "Why?" I can't write exactly what I said, but I'll just summarize. The reason why I would never ever in my life be a housewife is because I feel like I can do better. I know that I'm meant to do more than just clean the house, plant flowers, watch over the children, and go grocery shopping. I can do all that and work. I don't want to spend my adult life being that accessory to a man. I don't care if he's rich. If ever I do find a guy that's freaking amazing and wealthy, I'll still do my own thing and make a living. I don't want to be living off what he made. It's true, when you're married we tend to share income for mortgage payments, electricity, water, power, groceries, etc. but I want contribute too... And when people ask, "What do you do for a living?" I don't want to say, "Oh you know, I'm a housewife" with a fake ass smile. I find that hella embarrassing. And another thing, I heard that housewives are more likely to cheat on their husbands because they are stuck at home all alone. :X

YUP.... but that's just my opinion.

2009-10-01

:|

When it comes to the past, I’m usually the first person to get over it. But, I find myself thinking about how life use to be when I was younger. So much simpler, care-free and just plain easy. I can still remember those summer days when my parents took my siblings and I to my grandma’s house where she took care of all the kids. Old, with salt and pepper hair, my grandma was solely responsible for at least 10+ children. My cousins and I were quite an imaginative group of children. We played guns outside, using weapons hand made from popsicle sticks. Every time the ice cream man came around with his truck, playing the joyful chimey music, us kids bought not only ice cream, but also candy, water guns, and smoke bombs. Oh, it was the life. I never realized how easy it was to be a kid. Now, all us kids are old ranging from 13 years old to the late 20s. More than half of us are in college, and a few have jobs, and the rest are either still in high school or still in middle school. But still, we’re old. We’re all doing different things in life, and we’re all in different places. And I don’t like it. I want to be a kid again… for just one day. Pretty please? I miss it. :(

2009-09-14

Summer 2009

This summer went by so fast. I can still remember the moment I walked out of my last final for spring 09. I packed my stuff and went home. :) I still remember the day I moved into CV for summer session. I still remember when I started summer school. I remember every single party and kickback I went to. I went to the beach a total of 24 times. (yes I counted) I spent a lot of time with my family and a lot of time with my friends. Even though many of my friends went off to different countries for either school or just vacation, I don't feel like I've been neglected. This summer has been probably the best summer I've ever had. I didn't spend too much time studying and I still did well, like A- well. :) This summer was NOT stressful, depressing or sucky. It was fun, happy, and full of joy. I loved every moment of it. But now it's almost over and I'm not sad. I'm just thankful I had as much fun as I did. There wasn't anything I didn't do that I wish I did. I did everything I wanted to do. I'm actually looking forward to Fall 09. I can't wait.

2009-09-11

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself: You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

RESPONSE: There is not doubt I'm intelligent and honest, but sweet? I don't think so. Also, I am not so cheerful.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for: You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

RESPONSE: So not true. I believe it takes two people to make a relationship work, and I will definitely not be the one doing everything to keep my true love. I'm not that desperate.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

RESPONSE: Dead on.

The seriousness of your love: You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

RESPONSE: Hate to admit it, but true.

Your views on education: Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

RESPONSE: Though I don't show it, but I do believe education is very important. Now, I'm trying to learn as much as I can.

The right job for you: You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

RESPONSE: Yeah, true.

How do you view success: You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

RESPONSE: No doubt in my mind I'll be successful.

What are you most afraid of: You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

RESPONSE: Wrong, I honestly don't care about what other people think about me and how they see me. I'm just me and I won't change just to please others.

Who is your true self: You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

RESPONSE: Hah.

2009-08-12

Talk about something else, please?

So I sit here in the kitchen, approximately 30 feet away from my roommates bedroom and I can't help but overhear their current conversation. Because they decide to keep their door open, I'm guessing they don't mind me hearing every single word. The topic at hand, is who's hotter... ARE YOU FREAKING SERIOUS??? I know it's natural for girls to ask other girls who they would prefer based on appearance rather than personality, (Cuz let's get real, they have never met these celebrities) but COME ON! A full 30 minutes of asking who you think is hotter is a bit ridiculous. Girls, let's not be shallow.

And another thing, I am not a pessimist but rather a realist. Thank you very much.